I Try!

Sometimes it gets depressing,
Sometimes I end up stressing,
Sometimes my heart aches and I feel hurt,
Sometimes it’s not funny like Kevin Hart,
Sometimes I just want a new start,
Sometimes I don’t wanna feel torn apart,
Sometimes I wanna get high,
But all the time, I do try!

Open Letter to my Heart

Dear heart,
I don’t know where to start,
I guess without you I wouldn’t be able to survive,
But then again without you, I wouldn’t feel the hurt,
I’m sorry that sometimes I don’t feel like being alive,
Things I think about that only tear you apart,

You see,
The main reason I feel like this is because of family,
Have you ever felt like you don’t belong?
I should probably stop because this breeds on insanity,
And you know that men should probably be strong,

But it’s about time to end this toxic masculinity,
I wrote this because I wanted to speak reality,
As men, we face a lot of pressure about where we should be,

In life,
I thought I’d have a handle on it by the time I was 23,
24, 25 wonder if these years will pass me by,
Should I work in a corporate, should I try?

I’m better with art,
Regarding my successes, will it be part?
Will I throw all my opportunities away just like a dart?
Will I ever be enough?

Open Letter to me from the Heart

Dear Host,
I think that you should hear this,
The truth about life is,
You will never feel like you are where you should be,
And your mind has a tendency of reminding you where you could be,
Not to mention when you think of the past and remember where you would be,

With regard to family, there’s not much you could do,
With regard to attitude, there’s still so much you should do,
Just take it one day at a time and learn to cope,
God doesn’t give you something you can’t handle so in that there’s hope,

To be honest it pains me to see you in pain,
You hold a lot of resentment yet it’s giving you no gain,
Memories that stick with you like a permanent stain,
I long for the day that I shall see you smile again.