Own It

I’m sorry to all the people I’ve let down,
I’m sorry if I ever made you frown,
I’m sorry if I ever took off your crown,
I’m sorry if I ever made you into a clown,

We all make mistakes and I haven’t always been the first one to admit it,
Sometimes the ego lies to us and we find ourselves in a state of regret it,
We end up finding ourselves in our ways of escape in an attempt to forget it,
But no matter how much we try to run away the feeling we can’t neglect it,

However, it is in the errors that the solution is found,
Can only learn to pick yourself up when you hit the ground,
Can only go so far into the wrong direction to turn around,
Can only make enough wrong decision to make decisions so sound,

I will be better today than I was yesterday,
Learning from making mistakes every way,
Working on moulding my character like clay,
Eventually there will be a brighter day.

Powerful

There is no pain as strong as the psychological,
The imbalance in your mind can even manifest itself in the physical,
Due to the power of your memory you keep experiencing it over,
And imagining repeat scenarios in your head as you ponder,

We often get lost in our heads being the stars of our own drama,
At times being too emotionally invested and holding on to the trauma,
Forgetting that reality is in the now and not in the happenings of yesterday,
Nor in the what if scenarios of tomorrow leading to anxiety in facing the day,

Once you realize that there is no time, past or future in your reality,
And you see that what you have and will ever have is now with clarity,
You can get to understand what exactly you have in your control,
You have the power of free will to make decisions in line with your goal,

Keep in mind that there is no such thing as time,
If you are worth anything then, you are worth something now,
Don’t compare your level two to someone else’s level nine,
We can all make it, the only question you need to ask yourself is how,

The first step is to study and learn so that you can sharpen the mind,
What good is a beautiful body if you have mental clutter and can’t think right,
The second step is to search, look within and love what you find,
Knowing and accepting yourself gives you the power to face any stormy night.

How Many Times

How many times has your ego gotten in the way?
How many times did you say that you’ll quit the next day?
How many times your consequences did you have to pay?
How many times from your ideal path did you stray?

 

Keep On Going

I know sometimes it can get messy,
When you have a lot on your plate,
Tryna finish up on everything so hasty,
Why’d you submit that assignment so late?

Told yourself this time would be different,
This time you’ll become just a bit more efficient,
But changing old ways can prove resistant,
Man, it’s just so hard to be consistent,

Then you enter that mental dialogue,
And think back to your memory log,
To all the times you made a miss,
Asking yourself, “Why am I like this?”,

And you feel like shrinking and closing up,
Watching motivational videos just isn’t enough,
Starting to notice mistakes in all of your work stuff,
Find yourself wishing that you just didn’t give a …,

But fret not because the feelings are only temporary,
Focus on them and you only keep the negative energy flowing,
No matter how heavy your inefficiencies become to carry,
The only thing you need to do is remember to keep on going.

Lemme get Spiritual

I don’t want money,
I want control,
Over my mind and soul,
Emotions and the physical,

Come on you can’t say you don’t feel like there’s more,
To your being, to everything, you can feel it in your core,
Have you ever asked yourself “Who am I?”,
“Why do I exist?”, “What happens when I die?”,

You see I have thought about this for a while,
It happened that for a long time I couldn’t smile,
Made one too many mistakes and hurt more than just me,
And it took me a long time just to be free,

It took a while but I eventually started looking within,
Deep down looking for what exactly makes up a human being,
What exactly runs this mechanism of the human essence,
If you pay enough attention you can actually feel God’s presence,

Once you understand who you are,
And how exactly you machine is run,
You will feel a sense of control over life and be in a better position,
External situations should have no effect on the internal condition.

 

Love and Compassion

The best gift you can give to someone is a moment of your time,
We all go through the motions of feeling less worthy than a dime,
And so you being there for someone could make them feel quite sublime,
In their lowest you could make them feel less like they were born a crime,

The best gift you can give to an artist is appreciating their work,
If only you could see how many hours it takes off their clock,
How much emotion it consumes and trust this is not just talk,
What fears and doubts they face just to open up and unlock,

The best gift you can give your spouse is to accept them for who they are,
We all come full with history, insecurities and baggage like an overloaded car,
Not to mention how we often try to hide each and every emotional scar,
So when we find someone that accepts us we feel as special as a shooting star,

The best gift you can give the world is your own God-given gifts,
Not only does it help the world but even your own soul it uplifts,
The effect is so strong such that it can even make the darkest of hours lit,
By inspiring someone else to share theirs and change the world bit by bit.

Let Go

You can only be able to gain when you let go,
Most people who feel pain rarely even show,
The more they keep it hidden the more it starts to grow,
And slowly everything that is bottled in starts to blow,

Shame, resentment, pain, anger and hurt,
These are emotions that slowly eat you up,
Its okay to feel just don’t hold on and pile up like a cart
There is no excuse for them in your life to be part,

Learn to forgive others and better yet learn to forgive yourself,
By now you should know human beings will always make mistakes,
Accepting that fact for you and others could make life magical like an elf,
Its not easy to do so but a change in mindset and perspective is all it takes,

Own your mistakes they are the ones that teach you who you are supposed to be,
When other people wrong you it has more to do with them than you I guarantee,
They just have their own journey in life and things to work through to be free,
My only goal is to help reduce the emotional weight in your heart so you can breathe,

You can only be able to gain when you let go,
Most people who feel pain rarely even show,
The more they keep it hidden the more it starts to grow,
And slowly everything that is bottled in starts to blow.

Time

“I have tried to live my life such that in the hour of my death I would feel joy rather than fear.” – Witold Pilecki

I stumbled upon this quote in a book,
It’s profoundness required a taking a second look,
I couldn’t help but drift into a contemplating flow,
Some glimpses of which are presented below,

Youth can be deceitful,
Can make you think it will last forever,
End up being ungrateful,
Oh boy! Don’t you think you are all clever,

The middle ages are frightful,
Can’t help but wonder if you are on the right path,
It’s too late to change oh how delightful,
Midlife crisis got you wishing you recalculated your math,

The old ages are clearer,
You see there’s more to life than the physical,
As your time draws nearer,
Relationships and continuity through your kin is critical,

All in all, time flies quicker than you tend to notice it,
Although the only time that you need to pay attention to is this moment,
You can’t get any younger than this it’s hard to admit,
Let go of the past and influence the future by making the most of the present,
(Shout out to Kung Fu Panda)

Sometimes you might not know where to begin,
I’m no expert but I may offer a few suggestions,
Begin by slowing down and looking within,
Listen to yourself and all of the questions,

I know at times it can get overwhelming to reflect,
But learn to accept the parts of you difficult to think about,
Anything before now cannot change though you shouldn’t neglect,
Treat them as the nasty shit that nourishes the plants to sprout,

With regard to the topic of the questions inside,
Pay attention to the ones that keep on recurring over and over,
The ones laced with all your fears and doubts amplified,
Those are the ones you need to study and to conquer.

 

Words of Encouragement

No one can see the pressure that you are always on,
Things get tough and you handle everything on your own,
Even when the world leaves you battered, beaten and torn,
You still have the energy to keep pushing on,

Today was especially heavy and you felt like giving up and walking away,
Tired of cliché advice from others such as where there is a will there is a way,
Wondering where is that breakthrough, where is that pay,
Where is that motivation that will see you through another day,

You see, growth and development is built through times like these,
Times that are so heavy that they get you on your knees,
Having you looking up to God and saying please,
Praying for a time when everything will be a breeze,

You see, nothing comes easy and it shouldn’t,
With every obstacle that you face and overcome, you actually grow,
You become better equipped to face others that you initially couldn’t,
So keep on keeping on and see what developments the future has in store.

Same Blood

Someone once said that there is no house as divided as a house of the same blood,
I reflected on the truth of this statement and couldn’t help but feel sad,
As much as there are good times, there is a huge number of bad,
Sometimes it’s your family that makes your life hard,

For me, it has been something I have struggled with over the years,
The highlight of which has been resentment, bitterness, pain and tears,
Stemming from family members projecting on me their fears,
Telling me “oh, you can’t do this and you can’t do that” all landed on deaf ears,

I have always been rebellious by nature,
Headstrong and an even stronger stature,
But I’m only human and sometimes the negativity gets to my head,
And I end up forgetting my potential and direction because of some else’s dread,

It’s one thing when people do not support your dreams and its another when it’s your family,
Dark thoughts making you feel like being born in such an environment is a tragedy,
But I’m a warrior of the light so I always make sure to drive my thoughts away from the agony,
And I am the master of my own fate and can make positive out of the negative like in alchemy,
(Two Paulo Coelho references in one stanza like a boss.)

I am writing this just as something to remind myself why I do what I do,
And to remind myself that they are only human and speaking from what they’ve been through,
I always say that if you rooted in who you are internally then no external situations can phase you,
All in all, this is just a reminder to rise above my emotions and situations so as for me to stay true.